Struggling

I'm struggling.

I'm struggling with food, with exercise, with body image, and yes, I know they're related, but it's a nasty cycle.  At first, it was due to being so busy with school and work, between the two I was around 70 hours per week, which left little time, or energy to do anything, and I think now I've fallen out of the habit.  I try, I'll go for a run, or go to the gym one day and eat well that day (I don't want it to be for nothing after all), but then the next day I blow any good I've done and get busy (or make excuses) and don't exercise again for a week... or more and the whole thing starts all over again.

I yell at myself, pissed off.  While I'm putting the naughty food in my mouth I think "I shouldn't be eating this" but I do it anyway :(  I don't know how to get my motivation back.  I get sad because I don't have what I wanted to have by this point in my life.  Yeah I'm working on it, but there are other things that I really want as well, namely a family of my own, but it doesn't look like this is going to happen any time in the near future either.... so I get more sad, and eat crap to make myself feel better, which actually just makes me feel worse and then I think that I'm going to get fat again and to STOP EATING THAT!!! but it doesn't work.

I did quick start a couple months ago with great success and good results, I thought it would help me to reset my brain and get back on track with eating right, and it did, but not for long, so now I feel lost and helpless, even though I know I'm really the only one who can control what I eat and how much I move, but somehow my brain is stuck.  I don't know how to get it unstuck for more than a few days. :(


Sa

A delicious sweet loaf. Grain free Pear and Raspberry loaf!

Grain free pear and raspberry bread.

Yummy! 

1 cup of desiccated coconut

1 cup of almond flour and 1 tablespoon

1/4 cup of arrowroot flour ( tapioca flour)

4 tsp baking powder 

2 tablespoons LSA mix

3 eggs

2 tablespoons coconut oil

1/3 cup of b grade Maple syrup 

Cinnamon ground to taste

1 ripe but not over ripe pear ( grated)

1 cup frozen raspberries

Pre heat the oven to 220c. 

Combine all the dry ingredients in a bowl. 

 Add eggs, oil, maple syrup and grate pear into the mixture.  

Add raspberries last and fold in. 

Pour mixture in to a lined loaf tin.  Dribble a little extra maple syrup over to glaze.

Turn oven down to 200c . Put in the oven. 

 Cook for 35 mins then bump heat back up to 230c. Once the loaf is firm and brown ( about 10mins) remove and allow to cool in the pan for 25mins. 

Slice ! This loaf can be toasted and is delicious when slathered in butter! Yum! 

Why hello there little blog!

Well it has been a long time since we posted on here. But soooo much has even going on. As you can see by the last post on here by ' Sa ' she is back in Canadian territory. I'm still down under, doing my thing. Since my last post lots has happened. I have changed from working part time to working full time as a store manager, as well as being a full time mum and wife. It has been a bit of an adjustment, but we are getting on pretty ok. My fitness dropped off a bit in the adjustment to working full time, but I still have managed to achieve many of my fitness goals.

* August 2012 - I ran my first ever 10k race. It wasn't fast but I did it. 1:08:55 was my time. And I was pretty stoked to have completed it so strongly. Having never actually run that distance before.

* January 2013 - I rocked up for my 3rd Australia Day fun run and knocked almost 8 minutes off my time from last year! I was pretty damn happy about that. It was odd though running it without Melissa though.

March 2013 - I competed in the Magnetic island "dirty weekend", Adventurethon.
( http://www.adventurethon.com.au ) I competed in the " Taste of adventurethon" which involved a 1 k kayak ( I had to learn how to kayak! ) a 10k bike ride and a 2.4 k " run". I had an amazing time, a few hic ups but I finished in exactly the time I was hoping for. 1:44:35. (I wanted less then 1:45:00) I had some bike related technical issues. Lol but I will be back next year to better my time!

I'm hoping to compete in another upcoming adventerthon event in July. The national challenge.
Really need to get my bum into gear for that one! And repeat my 10k event in August.

My diet has changed somewhat too. I have take to primal eating and have really noticed a difference in myself from this. Grains and processed foods haven't place in my diet anymore. I have definitely noticed the difference. I'm planing to blog more often. I want to share and journal my primal fitness journey...

So little blog...I'm back.:) no excuses.

Hello again

So here I am again, 'round the other side of the world.  No gym membership and little motivation.  The 5 months stuck in one place weighing on me.  All the effort, all the workouts and proper eating seem pointless. I'm back for good this time. Sadly.  Tuition at 3x that of a local student began to get a little too expensive.  Looking for a job now, and trying to organize finishing school here, but it doesn't appear easy.  I've been trying to run, but I've been booted back to the first week of c25k, and my Mom's bought me a group of bootcamp classes which I begin tonight.

I don't really want to be here, but sadly it's out of my control.  I'm trying to eat pretty well, which is difficult when you just get back to where there are lots of delicious things you haven't had in a long time.

Not sure what else to say right now.  I hope this boot camp can help me get over this hump because it's so frustrating when you're doing all the right things but not getting the results.



Sa

frustration

So, it's been a very long time since I've posted. I know this.  I've been feeling very VERY frustrated.  I've been stalled out for a MONTH, fluctuating within 500 grams (or 1 lb) every time I weigh.  I have lost a small amount of centimetres.  I've been eating properly and working out regularly and yet still stalled.  I even increased my calories in case that was the reason (about a week ago) and no results from that yet.  Even before I stalled out I was feeling like a failure even when I was succeeding. It's very difficult when you're doing nearly exactly the same thing as someone else and they're results are so much better.
Honestly I often feel like giving up.  What's the point of all my efforts if I'm getting NO results anymore?  The wind is seriously coming out of my sails and I feel like I'm just drifting.  I'm working hard and nothing is coming of it.  I've thought about stopping counting my calories, as when we lost weight the last time we didn't count, and it seemed to come off easily then, so I don't know if I'm too focused on that or what.
I've also considered stopping running.  I feel frustrated with that as well.  Yesterday morning, got up before 6am to go for a run. I honestly ran for about a minute and realised I didn't have it in me.  Talk about frustrating. When I run with Melanie, I feel like I hold her back. She runs at a faster pace and can run for longer than I can.  So either I'm holding her back, or I feel pushed TOO much (not intentionally by her, more of my own need to try to keep up). Then I feel pissed off that I can't.
So I don't know anymore.
That's it for today.

Sa

Great weather for ducks....?

I don't think so. We have had some seriously wet weather In my part of the world these last few days. the wet season seemed to have had a rather later start then usual. But early hours of this morning brought a large monsoonal low over us and with it a so called "mini tornado". Tornadoes are not something that we usually see in this part of the world, though we do have lots of pretty scary weather. Unfortunately along with this low it brought some seriously unexpected weather. Parts of my City have been devastated by this "Tornado" and it came without warning, in the very early hours of the morning when no-one expected it.

So many families live in this area. It is just 5 minutes drive form my own home.  Houses lost their roof, Families lives and belongings ripped out from under them.  Some while they lay sleeping in their beds. So tonight while your all cosy in your beds. Please spare a though and a little prayer for these families.

I drove through this area later in the day to go check on a good friend who wasn't answering her phone, And the disaster that I seen just rendered me speechless.

Someone's roof.

My girlfriend and her family live just near here.

A home destroyed.

Unexpected Chaos.

An evacuation centre has been set up near this area, And SO many people have just dug deep and got in to help clean up. The weather is still expected to be horrid, and we are still on a sever weather warning. Hopefully the worse is over though.

Looking at this map..there is still a lot of nasty weather to come.

Edited to add this link to another video.

Till next time.

Update....again. lol

So I have been totally slack updating this...But on and up note I am loving the 8 week challenge and have been pushed beyond my comfort zone. boot camp was AMAZING! I really enjoyed it. it was totally worth the 5 am wake up. haha! I ran on sand, almost fell out of a kayak and ran carrying Jerry cans full of water. It hurt.A Lot.  

After I cooled down. My Pink Do Life Shirt made a debut!

So After some careful thought I decided not to follow the food plan that they supplied. I know that within myself that I would not stick to it. So I have just continued to count my calories and log them using My Fitness Pal. I know I can not stick to a chicken and veggie diet. Im a red meat girl. But I have lost pretty stead since both on the scales and Measurements. I have added Protein shakes back to my daily diet too. Especially as part of my workout recovery.

Since my Last update I have also hit 20 lbs ( that is almost 10kg) lost so far!! I can really see the difference too. Ad my clothes are showing it too!

8 Jan 2012

4 March 2012

On the running front...I did C25k Week 5 day 3 today!!! 21 minutes of NON STOP RUNNING!!!!! I cold not believe that I actually did it!! I was a little bit scared of it to be honest. But today I just didn't stop after my first 8 minute run and just kept at it. I was so happy at my 20 min mark...I just kept going!! I finished off with a couple of shorter intervals. I finally feel like a popper runner. *Happy Sigh*


Things around here have been crazy with work, Kids, Sa at uni and general life.But We are feeling good and like we are back on track. Im on holidays form work in just over a week, and Im REALLY looking forward to it. really will try to update here more. I know Sa will Likely be along to update too.

Till nest time Little blog,