Comparison

Ahhh, just back from the gym.  We cleaned all morning as there is an inspection on Tuesday, will be doing more tomorrow, and then lunch and a bit of school work then the gym.  I peddled my ass off.  Right now, this 

Seems to be so true for me.  Some reason I always seem to lag behind Melanie.  I don't know why. I feel like I put in all the effort I have.  I feel like I'm keeping pace, but she always seems to pull ahead of me.  Is it that she's going harder than me? I don't feel like it.  Is it her short little legs? Possibly?  I don't know what it is, but a lot of the time I feel like I just didn't do well enough.  I don't know how many times I've said to myself that I shouldn't compare myself to anyone. I'm doing the best I can, but somehow I can't seem to help it.  Most of the time I just can't stop myself from comparing. It sucks.  I suppose it sometimes gives me a bit of motivation to go faster, but then I still don't end up catching up! *sigh*  Well, I just need to remind myself that as long as I'm moving and doing the best that I can, I'm doing well.

Really it's not only at the gym.  Her clothes are looser on her than mine are on me, she's dropping weight faster etc.  I know we are two totally different bodies who hold and lose their weight differently, but still. It would be nice for me to be able to FEEL some progress as well.

Anyways, on to other things....  Was told in the car ride home I need to lesson my free weights.  I'm only using 3kg (6.6lbs), but Melanie says it will just bulk me up instead of really helping me lose fat. Which is what I want to do, but I also like the feeling of the muscles there.  I know muscle weighs more than fat, so if I gain too much muscle too fast, it will appear I'm not losing or even gaining weight.  *sigh* I know she knows best, but it makes me feel like I'm accomplishing more when I can lift these weights successfully.  Gah.  I shall take her advise, as I usually do, and lessen my weights down to 2kg's and do more reps.


That is all.